Hi all,

I hope it's ok for me to write in English. My Dutch isn't really good enough yet.

I lost my brother to suicide a few years ago. Just a few weeks after it happened, I moved away from my home country and started a new life here in NL. I kept it a secret and never told anyone about it. Now I feel so overwhelmed by grief and pain. I don't know what to do. I haven't been going to work for the last few months because I feel so overwhelmed. My partner doesn't know how to handle these heavy feelings and I think he is losing patience with me. I just want to talk to someone who has been in this situation. My brother and I were close and I miss him so much. I need help to deal with this in a healthy way.