Emotional support
I was brutally victimized over 25 years ago, but luckily survived the attacks and crimes against me. What happened to me was so extreme, that I developed a form of amnesia.
Because of the amnesia I've been walking around all that time with mental health issues and could not get treated because I could not remember what happened (I wasn't even aware of it, despite my external injuries and my nightmares for which I felt ashamed)
During all that time I did notice something was off with me, I did not trust anyone, was easily triggered by many things, and no one understood me anymore which is why I removed myself from my family, and friends and moved abroad.
Three years ago an acupuncture treatment triggered my memories. I started having flashbacks and then everything came into my consciousness.
It was quite a shock especially because all these things were somewhere hidden in my brain all the time. Since then I am able to connect the dots why some things trigger me, why my teeth broke off, etc.
I went through very intense periods and worked through trauma and I am doing a lot better in the meantime. There is one thing though that I need and can't get sported out. My therapy sessions are decreasing now (because I am doing better) which is why I am looking for emotional support.
I tried finding a self-help or support group, but apparently, you have to speak fluent Dutch to be accepted in one, which is odd, given that I live in an international city.
I understand most of Dutch but my ability to speak it is limited, (and frankly may hurt Dutch ears at times - I get it). Is there perhaps an international support group I could join? Or are there other possibilities for emotional support? I would love to join also a Dutch group, after all, I do live here and think I should learn the language anyways.
Does anyone here know of a group that is open to non-natives?
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