A life marked by sexual abuse

Hello, I want to briefly share my story of abuse, because honestly this has been a very difficult period in which I have felt deeply alone.  I am 20 years old and I was born in Spain.  From 6 months to 3 years old, my uncle sexually abused me for being a mother and manipulated me and separated me from my parents saying that they did not love me, which from a young age seriously affected my self-esteem and my relationship with them, then with 8 Years ago I moved to Peru to live and there that same uncle sexually abused me but in a more discreet way, then another uncle from 10 years old until I was 14 years old, at every family gathering he touched me and tried to forcibly kiss me, when I was 12 years old. I had my first boyfriend and he also abused me and humiliated me, beat me and manipulated me until I was able to end the relationship, then I was 14 years old and I met another boy and he finally raped me and not happy with that he took a photo of me and send to your friends.  When I was 15 years old, my next boyfriend raped me, humiliated me, and hit me again. I was in a loop of toxic relationships that I didn't know how to get out of, and when I was just 16 years old I arrived in Spain to start treating myself for these traumatic events and many more that happened along the way. of my life and at 17 years old I started dating a new boy who was 8 years older than me and I decided to go live with my family and him in Holland, and without realizing it I fell into another relationship of rape, emotional abuse and isolation.  It's only been 5 months since I finally broke up with him after 2 years together and the truth is it's been a very hard process, I thought that my ghosts and all the pain had stayed in Peru but he accompanied me and transferred me to my new relationships, it's being a very difficult life and I have the feeling of guilt and responsibility for having fallen into the same thing so many times and having been unable to report anything, I write it here to seek a refuge where I feel that there are people who understand me and that I am not a stranger in the world. society that no longer has anywhere to go.  Thank you very much for reading me and I send you a big hug ♡