Feeling unsafe

Hi, I found this platform and I wanted to share my experience. in december last year I moved to a new house, I was stressed for chage of work and housing, I move with a guy from Egypt and soon started getting close and intimated, I also for some reason started experiencing more street harrasment and I felt vulnerable, I kind of look for refuge in him and we became more intimate untill he said he could do anything sexual cuz he was muslim, all good but then after some weeks we where sleeping and things escalated and he asked me to do sexual things I refuse  several times I didn't really wanted I was tired and then under pressure I complied, and but then afterwards started getting terribly triggered and started having flashbacks of my abusive past and started getting really depressed, he disappeared emotionally and almost physically after this happened even living in the same house and I couldn't processed it while living there so I moved, the worst part is that he is a nice religious guy but I felt the transgression so badly afterwards but I don't know if I'm as mad at him as I am to myself, also because I keep atracting street harrasment no matter how I dress I could be dress as a guy for all the matter and I still get weird situations in the street from strangers and is really difficult to feel safe nowadays, just to give example, yesterday going to work in the bike two guys in a fatbike and one slapped my butt so hard that it hurts for hours and I was wearing long coat, nothing provocative, a week before three guys in fabike acting out passed really near me and shouted really loud in my ear, the support groups im in they tell me I keep attracting thise because of my unresolved grief and resentment toward my past history, to be honest I feel like never leaving my house or my bed, unfortunately I can't but it feels very unmanageable psychologically. Thanks for reading.